Monday, May 5, 2014
Merrily we roll along
We got some of Peter's test results back. As I said earlier the celiac test was not done correctly so they are going to have to re-do that one. His thyroid is fine. The CBC showed low hemoglobin and hemocratic levels, so he's anemic. It isn't too bad, but it is low. It explains his poor coloring and fatigue. I forgot to ask about the WBC. I'll call again tomorrow.
I went to the temple the other day. Wanted to not think about Peter for a little bit. Of course the name Peter kept coming up. Figures. So I was actually a wreck the entire time. A sweet sister came and found me later and said that it was okay to be emotional at the temple, it was such a happy place. I really wanted to yell at her. I'm not happy. I'm quite mad. She didn't know that, I'm sure that a lot of people have happy tears at the temple. She just assumed I'm one of them.
Sunday was equally difficult. Last place I wanted to be was church. I'm feeling anything but spiritual right now. I'm trying. I am. It just isn't happening. Peter has been sleeping rather fitfully the last few nights and I wake up every time he starts crying. So thank goodness it was my co-teacher's turn to teach our six 3-4 year olds. Someone put wiggle juice in their cereal that morning because they were bouncing off the walls. All of them. And crying, and sniffling, and whining. I got home and was absolutely wiped out. Peter and I took naps. Four hours later we got up and had dinner. And I was still tired. Ha!
I am grateful for the outpouring of care that has been shown to us. We have so many people praying for us, thinking positive thoughts for us, checking up on us to see what can be done to help. Thank you thank you thank you. It means the world to me. I'll know here soon just what we need by way of help, and I promise I'll keep everyone posted.
And prayer. *sigh* My wise friend, Chandler, counseled me to pray for comfort and peace until I can pray "Thy will be done". She's smart, that one. As far as BFFs go I think she's a keeper. I'll give that a go. Maybe it will help me sleep better. That and sleepy-time tea.